Es gibt Songs, die begleiten mich schon mein halbes Leben. Sie sind für mich Quelle von Energie, Inspiration und, so pathetisch das klingen mag, sie geben mir Halt. Besonders in stürmischen Zeiten (ja, 2014, ich rede von dir) ist es die Musik, die mir hilft, mein Leben trotz widriger Umstände im Griff zu behalten. Dass daneben auch jede Menge Ideen für Geschichten abfallen, ist ein sehr positiver Nebeneffekt.

Hier einer meiner absoluten Lieblingssongs von VNV Nation: „Rubicon“. Großartiges Stück, ich tanze IMMER, wenn das läuft, und wenn ich der einzige bin. Besonders die Lyrics sind grandios, weswegen ich mich veranlasst sehe, diese unter dem Video mit einzufügen.

Lyrics zu „Rubicon“ <3

„Praying for myself,
These thoughts I try to hide,
I have faith in me,
I hope this will survive,
But it’s tearing me apart.
I can’t hear the words by which I guide,
So I must ask again,
Who will carry me?

I will not deny,
Nothing can defend,
From the helplessness,
That’s cutting deep inside,
And I can’t prevent,
The thought that nothing’s real.
Seems I’m waiting years,
For this day to end.

Strength I need to feel,
The pride inside of me,
Are not there behind the face,
That’s staring back at me.
The anger and the pain,
Of knowing where I am.
I have come so far,
And I cannot return.

Nothing I can do,
That I have not done.
No words I can say,
No truth left that I can see,
So must I let this end,
So everything falls apart,
Before I live the life,
As I have always done.

Tell me what to do,
So I do nothing wrong.
Something I can hope for,
Something real that I can see,
So nothing falls apart,
So this does not end.
I cannot return,
I can’t start again.

Nothing to deny,
Nothing to defend,
From the helplessness,
That’s cutting me so deep inside,
And I can’t prevent,
The thought that nothing’s real.
It seems I’m waiting years,
For this day to end.

Praying for myself,
These thoughts I’ve tried to hide,
I have faith in me,
I hope this will survive,
But it’s tearing me apart.
I can’t hear the words by which I die,
So I must ask again,
Who will carry me?

Nothing I can do,
That I have not done.
No words I can say,
No truth left that I can see,
So must I let this end,
So everything falls apart,
Before I live the life,
As I have always done.

Tell me what to do,
So I do nothing wrong.
Something I can hope for,
Something real that I can see,
So nothing falls apart,
So this does not end.
I cannot return,
I can’t start again.

Nothing I can do,
That I have not done.
No words I can say,
No truth left that I can see,
So must I let this end,
So everything falls apart,
Before I live the life,
As I have always done.

Tell me what to do,
So I do nothing wrong.
Something I can hope for,
Something real that I can see,
So nothing falls apart,
So this does not end.
I cannot return,
I can’t start again.“

Besonders die letzte Strophe spricht mir aus der Seele, wie auch an einer unlängst von mir geschriebenen Geschichte zu erkennen ist. Nein, ich werde hier nicht spoilern, bleibt einfach gespannt, wann und wo sie veröffentlicht wird. Coming to an (e-)book near you in 2015. Promised!